Happiness?

A simple word. 9 letters. Two p's, two s's. A word people are taught from a young age.
But what makes people happy? What is happiness?
Is laughing being happy?
Is smiling being happy?
Enjoying the moment your in?
Having friends?
No one knows what happiness is so when someone says "You don't have depression because your happy and have a perfect life." Well, then there wrong because you could be the happiest person in the world and still have depression. Everyone has felt depression, sometimes not as strong as others but still felt the pain of it. Someone else can't decide whether or not you have depression or if your happy. People think that my smiles are happy and innocent when really every time I smile I slowly lose the happiness inside of me. How many smiles did you fake today? How many times did you fake a laugh to make people thing that you are okay? How many times have you lied to someone saying "oh, I'm okay" or "I'm fine" ? No one knows the meaning of happiness. The dictionary is just saying what people want to hear, what people hope to believe.

Night Driving

You know that feeling where you're in the car and it's late and everything is perfect. Sitting in comfortable silence that makes your lips cure into an innocent smile. The perfect music that makes it feel like at any moment you could start crying because everything is so perfect and no one could ruin the moment right now. The dark, inky sky scattered with pure stars. It looks as if a little kid has just found glitter. Nothing could be better then that moment. When you can just close your eyes and relax. Feeling safe for just that millisecond but that's enough to last a life time, enough to last a millennium.

That everlasting feeling.

But it all ends when you get to the place your supposed to be at. It's almost as if a tiny piece of you is left with that car journey, that beauty and that moment. The only moment.